tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9771388.post2025321251152993953..comments2024-02-25T01:29:27.685-05:00Comments on madabandon: waking upmadabandonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12308987309977481146noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9771388.post-29138373914970256442008-07-25T18:23:00.000-04:002008-07-25T18:23:00.000-04:00thank you. i truly appreciate it, and you are so ...thank you. i truly appreciate it, and you are so right...madabandonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12308987309977481146noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9771388.post-91990439964320749652008-07-23T19:48:00.000-04:002008-07-23T19:48:00.000-04:00on a less severe scale, i experience depression, a...on a less severe scale, i experience depression, and have had some taste of its unpenetratable veil<BR/><BR/>and when it passes.. it seems to happen on its own (like weather), and i am just left grateful<BR/><BR/>but i've also tried to help myself out.. play tricks on my own brain to stop the spiral<BR/><BR/>when this fails, i know to surrender completely, as you did this time around, and just co-exist and ride it out (but ten days is a long time!)<BR/><BR/>but sometimes.. something like what you've done here<BR/><BR/>a bike! a bike ride!<BR/><BR/>which not only is a great present moment sensation, from the purchase to the ride, but<BR/><BR/>great visual stimulation, great exercise -movement- <BR/><BR/>outdoors<BR/><BR/>AND it triggers all these fond memories for you, which.. can help things spiral counterclockwise<BR/><BR/>the contact/honesty with siblings, and re-contact/repair of a wounded relationship<BR/><BR/>all seems worth noting and keeping in mind for future reference<BR/><BR/>also.. is there not a pattern when it comes to anniversary dates of your mom's birthday, or your mom's passing.. (or other tragedies/crisis experienced in life)<BR/><BR/>i have it in my head, that OUR BODIES -our whole bodies: mind and soul- REMEMBER dates we may ourselves have forgotten on a conscious level<BR/><BR/>and i don't necessarily mean specific dates.. exact days, <BR/><BR/>but dates..in the bigger picture.. like a season, weather, lighting. stimulation triggers like aromas, music.. environments<BR/><BR/>and without our conscious knowledge, these things can trigger depressions (?), with the depth, intensity, and longevity of that depression influenced by a variety of other stressors and biological factors<BR/><BR/><BR/>i'm very glad to see you make it through this recent darkness -i've been praying for you everyday<BR/><BR/>love, ~s.SHEhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15826249683489196986noreply@blogger.com