Round And Round

Here I am and I don't know why
I spin so ceaselessly...(patti smith)

I met Patti Smith at a party at my brother's once. She was very pale and she did not smile. But her eyes smiled, cryptically. She shook my hand.

I was shy and did not try to have a conversation with her.

Today on the subway, going to the pool, I started to cry. There was no particular thing or thought that made it happen. My mind seems to be on some trip of its own and I am just going along with it. I will try to be careful. I will hold on tight. There are friends here, at my apartment. N. is staying until she leaves for Marseille. She and Yoshi are cooking dinner and enlivening things. That is good.