as usual

As usual, when I get overwhelmed, as I have been the last few days, I start to sink into depression. And last evening Y. pissed me off so much; just a small thing but enough to send me into a spin. So I took what I have now learned is the best course: a whopping dose of trazodone to knock me out. I promptly fell into a coma-like sleep. Even now, at eight a.m., I feel dazed. The trazodone makes my dreams so vivid. Also, the fact that I did not eat last evening (I was so pissed that I lost my appetite completely) made my dreams even stranger. I hope that I can calm down today. Right now I feel shaky and distressed. I will go swim, and then go in the afternoon to Park Slope to see Matt. I hope it doesn't rain.