fright

I have scared off too many people: friends, lovers, potential lovers, because of my emotional fragility. But this fragility is my strength: it feeds my creativity, while starving me of the kind of strong sustenance one can get from having lots of friends, which only happens when you don't scare people off. I don't mean to scare them. People think I am too reserved, and that I am too aloof. I am just trying to hang on to myself (like the David Bowie song). I can't help myself.