shaking

I am really having a hard time shaking this one. I think that I fool myself when I feel that I have recovered from past hurts, traumas, injuries. I thought I was over this one, but clearly I am not. Every moment when I am not distracted by work or practical matters, my mind races back and thrashes through the thoughts and memories that torture me.

On the bright side I just came from a meeting about the new project I am working on, music for a production of Sophocle's OEDIPUS AT COLONUS. I won't write much more about it at this early stage, but it is a project that I am very excited about. I hope I will be able to work well and successfully on it. I hope it might lift me out of this dark place.