Friday, March 21, 2008

return...

I have decided to post again. Sporadically, rather than frequently. I don't simply want to fill space. I want to occupy it with something of substance. Now that leaves me at a loss for words.

I have come to realize, in the last month or so, that to expect happiness is wrong, at least for me. I have had happiness, have basked in it, but it can't last. So I must look for it, or look AT it, differently. Change my expectations so that I won't question things so much.

But on many fronts I thrive. My work goes very well. Exciting projects are in the works. The stuff I have done recently has been met with tremendous enthusiasm, so much so that I am overwhelmed. And my little family is cuter and more wonderful than ever.

winter willows

1 comment:

she said...

-makes my day to find a new post & photograph here (is that selfish?)

anyway.. smiled when i read your words here:

"I don't simply want to fill space. I want to occupy it with something of substance. Now that leaves me at a loss for words."

-because this is a common experience for me, and i see it so often with other artists

this, "loss" post "expectation"

because it is in the letting go of "expectation" of any kind (for me, anyway, and having witnessed this with others) that creativity returns and flourishes

expectations often shut creativity down and out

and then reading on, i realize this experience of expectation must also apply to happiness in the same way it applies to creativity in general

letting go of the expectation can yield its return

-congratulations!- on your creative successes & contributions!

and the unavoidable happiness your cute little family (so many pictures in my memory of mabel, hammy, tuna (other name?)/cats making me immediately smile) continues to bring

i want to wish you a very happy easter season! much love, ~s.